- You can’t control time, it will go too slow when you are waiting and it will go too fast when you are not ready. I don’t like the feeling of being on hold or put in limbo, I’m an action kind of girl at the core of things. I hate waiting. I’ve never been a patient person. I want answers and I want things to work towards. I’ve always been a paradox in some sense, I’m sure most people are, but sometimes I feel it acutely. I crave variety and new experiences, but at the same time I need structure and a plan. I need a timeline, I need to know the time I have. Maybe it is desire to control what little portion of time that you can–the way you spend it. This is less of a life lesson as is a ramble, but clearly time is plaguing my thoughts and mind these past weeks. This past week has felt so long, I feel like a million little things have happened, but at the same time, nothing big. Like baby steps that have will eventually lead to a big cliff. Things are just feeling very up in the air right this minute. There are too many thoughts and ideas and directions swirling in my head to really focus and capture a direction or plan. I’m sure I will feel less in neutral and more in drive soon, but for now I feel like I’m treading water deciding which way to swim.
- There are time when words fail you. You want to find the magic words, the words that will heal the pain, stop the loss, show the light, express the gratitude…the times you can’t find the words. They scrap at your brain, fighting each other to get out but you know they are too small or won’t come together right, they will end up in an awkward pile.
- I’m going to leave this with three life quotes that I really like, as I’m having a hard time capturing the words and finding a lesson. I guess, that can be the lesson, sometimes you just need to know when to be quiet and give your brain a rest 🙂 There was a lot of good things/news this week, but things that have a lot of WHAT IFS, MAYBES, and WHENS attached. There were also friends who shared sad news this week but that is their story. A week of up and downs.
What do you have to share this week?
i completely overlooked that quote in the book! for me these days.. i feel like time is going way too fast. i guess i’m not really waiting on the next thing to happen as much as trying to pack in as much as i can in what little time i have in whichever city i happen to be in. i love how dr seuss just simpifies things for us.
also.. is linking up a gratitude post appropriate for school of life? i wasn’t sure. that’s the only post that i talk about anything personal right now.
Words fail me all of the time! I’m consistently mumbling things when I can’t express myself.
learning that we can’t control time was a really important lesson for me to learn. A tough one, but an important one.
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Those are some good quotes.
Time really is fickle. I swear it only flies by when you don’t want it to!
Over the last year I really discovered the power of time, both good and bad. It’s not a thing to rush!
Ouch, I am feeling that last quote a little too much today. And also not knowing what to say on any of the great posts I’ve read this morning. Perhaps my words are stuck in my head the way you so eloquently described or perhaps it’s simply a matter of needing coffee. I hope this week is better for you in the movement department!
Oh I wish I could control time! These days – time passes so fast for me, I can hardly believe it’s June already!
Claire xx | somewhere… beyond the sea
Those are great quotes and very profound. Sometimes words do fail what we are feeling. Baby steps are better then no steps at all. It means you are getting closer to your goals and dreams.
I absolutely love the George Bernard Shaw quote, because he puts life firmly in your hands, and urges you not to let life just happen to you, but to live it.
I’m that need structure and plans/crave new experiences paradox too.
And I hate waiting.
I like thinking about the nature of time and our relationship to it.
I am NO stranger to the word pile! Good term for it!!!! haha
Ah, I hate that treading water feeling! like you have no idea what you’re supposed to do. But keep on keeping on, right? Good luck this week!
It drives me insane knowing that my words fall short to what’s in my heart when I’m trying to express something really important to me. There were two instances this week alone where people I’ve only just started to build/rebuild relationships with did something that absolutely touched my heart. I felt so deeply that they had given me the most wonderful gift and I just couldn’t manage to get the words that were in my head and my heart out poetically enough. They deserved more than my awkward thanks.
Anyways, I absolutely love the idea of not finding yourself, but creating yourself. I’m going to roll with that motto for now and see how it goes
Mariah, thanks for everything this week. The emails, the Leibster, your support. It really means so much. XO.
How cool that our three posts are all sort of along the same lines: less about lessons, and more about questions. We are in sync!
So many good points in this post. I love that line from John Green about time being a slut – it says it all. I guess all we can do is work towards something – even if the steps are so small that they seemingly make no difference. They will all add up, and one day you can see just how far you have come.
” I crave variety and new experiences, but at the same time I need structure and a plan.” – Whoa it is like you read my mind. I am the same exact way. I often feel like a contradiction in being that way.
Nice to know I’m not the only one.
sending good and positive thoughts your way!