This whole year I’ve felt lost, paralyzed, scared, and just well directionless. I’ve been trying to figure out the next steps in my life; what I should be doing to make money. I just felt so overwhelmed by it all and what I should focus on. Everyone talks about their passion and finding their passion, and well I wasn’t sure I would feel that pull or be able to commit to a new path. I’ve been desperately trying to figure out what I wanted to do.
I actually feel knots in my stomach typing this out and saying it out loud right now. I’m afraid of losing the motivation or momentum or confidence or well I’m afraid of everything. I just started working on the idea and I’m not sure exactly what form it will take, but I’ve decided (I think) my path is to help other creatives/entrepreneurs. I’ve had this desire for some time to have my own business and to follow in the entrepreneurial footsteps. Frankly, this whole year I’ve been cycling through so many ideas and directions of what skills I could develop or utilize to make that happen. Then while reading The Art of Work by Jeff Goins it just clicked. I think my role is supporting and nourishing other businesses…that is my business. I’ve had several meetings this year where I’ve totally geeked out about other peoples’ ideas/businesses. I get so excited when people say they are starting their own entrepreneurial endeavors, and I ask WAY too many questions and offer a ton of suggestions. I’ve been in so many situations where I think I scare them a little with all the questions and get a lot of “umm, haven’t thought of that, haven’t decided that”. Plus business is my background/education, it’s about time I use that MBA 🙂 It fits in so many ways, it clicked.
What do they say, if you are really serious about something you have to put it out into the universe. Well, here it is. I know it’s extremely vague right now, but for the first time in a very long time I feel a direction/a pull. So I’m sharing, I’m putting it out there. I’m scared and excited.
I’m going to share the journey here, because FBB is my home. It’s the space that has brought me real life friends and so many other connections that have enriched my life. I’m amazed at what a supportive and caring community blogging really is. It has truly shown me so much, made me step more outside myself, face insecurities and work through them. I love my blog, and honestly if feels so much like home that it has been hard for me to grow it as a “business” and well now I realize why. I do have a passion for food and travel (and booze), but I don’t want to “sell” it. The friends/readers on these pages and the stories are too me, too real for me to step back and treat it like a brand. Basically, FBB will not change, and I plan on doing the same types of posts I’ve been doing in this space. I will grow a new space for wherever the path leads, but this space will continue to be my sounding board. Ok, this was an insanely long and weird post, thanks for sticking it out with me. 🙂
I’m going straight into my August goals, I did a mini-recap of July in a post yesterday. And I feel like I did check off my main but less specific goal of “I’m giving myself July to not check things off per say, but figure them out. I need a re-set month.” I do feel like I found a direction, I just hope I keep it and can make it work.
- Have a great time on the two trips we do have planned in August, Palm Springs & Denver. Plan trip to SF in September (for reals) or decide it will be pushed to next year??
- Step up the Fitbit game. Walk Sam at least 3 days a week for 1 mile.
- Make sure to keep up with yoga or other fitness activity, goal 4 times a week (not including the above mentioned walks).
- Work my ass off towards my new project, I know vague but I’m not ready to share more….my goal is to be able to share more next month!! I have a huge to-do list already written up 🙂
What are your goals for August?
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