- You can’t control time, it will go too slow when you are waiting and it will go too fast when you are not ready. I don’t like the feeling of being on hold or put in limbo, I’m an action kind of girl at the core of things. I hate waiting. I’ve never been a patient person. I want answers and I want things to work towards. I’ve always been a paradox in some sense, I’m sure most people are, but sometimes I feel it acutely. I crave variety and new experiences, but at the same time I need structure and a plan. I need a timeline, I need to know the time I have. Maybe it is desire to control what little portion of time that you can–the way you spend it. This is less of a life lesson as is a ramble, but clearly time is plaguing my thoughts and mind these past weeks. This past week has felt so long, I feel like a million little things have happened, but at the same time, nothing big. Like baby steps that have will eventually lead to a big cliff. Things are just feeling very up in the air right this minute. There are too many thoughts and ideas and directions swirling in my head to really focus and capture a direction or plan. I’m sure I will feel less in neutral and more in drive soon, but for now I feel like I’m treading water deciding which way to swim.
- There are time when words fail you. You want to find the magic words, the words that will heal the pain, stop the loss, show the light, express the gratitude…the times you can’t find the words. They scrap at your brain, fighting each other to get out but you know they are too small or won’t come together right, they will end up in an awkward pile.
- I’m going to leave this with three life quotes that I really like, as I’m having a hard time capturing the words and finding a lesson. I guess, that can be the lesson, sometimes you just need to know when to be quiet and give your brain a rest 🙂 There was a lot of good things/news this week, but things that have a lot of WHAT IFS, MAYBES, and WHENS attached. There were also friends who shared sad news this week but that is their story. A week of up and downs.
What do you have to share this week?